If only...

If only I could be more confident in being on my own once in a while that would be better for me. Ever since I've been in a relationship for five an a half months I find myself depending on my significant other and not myself. Whenever I am not with my significant other, there is a deep sadness in me and I feel absolutely lost. I am not used to feeling this way but this feeling I have is pure loneliness.

My blog

Thank god I am getting better at designing my blog, I thought it was going to be a bore creating it, but it is really fun! I enjoyed adding little bits and pieces to my blog. I am hoping I will get more followers and if not, that is okay too. I just love messing around with my blog!

Another pair of great books!

I've been reading so much during this summer, although I always ready, however I've been reading great masterpieces such as Sommerset Maughm's "Of Human Bondage" and Fydor Dostovesky's "Crime and Punishment." I always crave intellectual stimulation and these books provided those for me. I've wanted to read "Crime and Punishment" since I visted the meseum of crime and punishment in Washington DC and I bought the book there. It is not an easy read however it does give an individual the opportunity to think about the book and it's subject content. I've also finished "American Lion", a biography on Andrew Jackson which was excellent. Obviously I've been reading heavy material lately, but it is sure worth it.

Favorite books

My favorite book would have to be "Oliver Twist" by Charles Dickens, I love the nineteenth century writings of this magnificent author and the themes he writes about. The theme of this story and many of his writings deal with poverty and how an individual copes with it and leaves poverty behind them. At least that is what I got from this story. A lot of nineteenth century novels are hard for me to comprehend but Charles Dickens' books are easy to read and comprehend. Another favorite book of mine is a guilty pleasure and it is by Jackie Collins. It is called "Hollywood Wives" and it is filled with lurid details about what Hollywood what was like in the author's mind in a fictious view.

What is pride to me?

The pride fesitval is coming up this saturday and I am planning to attend with my significant other and I am thrilled to be going this year not alone! But it is more than that, it is going and showing my pride and being proud of who I am. I am thrilled that the Sacramento Public Library is taking part of this through the outreach program, it makes me even more proud to be working in the system as an LSA.

When I think of the word 'pride', I think of is being at peace at who I am and not caring what people think of me. I take pride in my work, life and other joys as well. I think of the pride festival in that way myself, that people are coming out and celebrating themselves.

Paitence

A great challange for me is paitence, especially since I am working with the public as an on-call LSA. This job has made me become more paitent with people, even though it is severely tested many times. I used to be not as paitent as I am now, I use to fly off the handle right away, but since I am an LSA, it has mellowed me out in a lot of ways and I am grateful for it.

Perks of an on-call LSA

The most important thing about being an on-call LSA is that I love my job and enjoy what I am doing. Serving the public means alot to me and traveling around branch to branch is something I enjoy doing. I have been doing this for three an a half years and would never trade it for the world!